Thursday, June 10, 2010

Its Been A While Since....

So yes, its been an age since I tapped away to my blog - I'm sorry blog for neglecting you for a whole year! So quick update, in this time I have left Greece, moved to Essex, have been working as a Learning Support Assistant, made new lovely friends, my best friend had her baby, my other best bud returned from her travels (horray :)), started pole dancing, and , unfortunatly, had my heart broken :(.

It amazes how much everything changes so quickly, sometimes it's like you don't have time to breathe. I hate how everyone else can make desicions that are so massive, its like having the ground ripped from underneath you, and in that second your whole world can come crumbling down around you, while you're trying to steady yourself and process all the information.

The Boy got a new city job, thats where it all begins. I, like a mug, helped him with getting said job, lots of helping to write covering letters, and prep for interview. So why, when he got the job, could I not shake this horrid feeling that something was going to go very very very wrong. But, like a mug, I shoke the feelings off, and tried to be positive and excited for him. All I was hearing was about money, and the amazing new job. Then all of a sudden he was going to move....and worse, mentioning a 'new person'. Non - gender specific, its just so see -through. Please give me some credit. I knew he was getting a crush, I just knew it, but we'd been together for 2 years, and we made it through the hell that was Greece, so I had nothing to worry about right?? HA! 10 days the new person had been there, I should really ask them for some lessons on how to snare men, I'm guessing it starts by giving lots of information about 'how your ex boyfriend dumps you for not being sexually attractive!!!' This is a new breed of girl, who doesn't care about the other girl, and its not pretty. She doesn't care, she has your man in her sights, and thats it. And then as if he made up his mind on the tube journey home, it was suddenly over. I think he got swept up with the new job - the new life. Apparently he no longer wants a relationship, I don't think these things can change so quick, but there's nothing I can do about it - no matter how much I want to. He ruined us.

I am pleased to say that I am a Nice Girl. I have been appraoched in my new single state by blokes with girlfriends - for fun and excitemenet. There's no way on earth I am going to put another girl through what I have been through. What is wrong with these men?????? Please someone tell me!!

Gotta say, pretty impressed with myself. Its been two and a half weeks. Think I'm doing pretty well. There jave been the totally shitty days, where I want to stay in bed, pull the duvet over my head and cut off all contact. BUT I havent allowed it. Get Up. Put Your Make Up On. Wear Bright Clothes. Talk To Your Friends (yes they are sick of hearing 'how could he do this??' for the hundredth time, but you know what, you're there for them whens its shit, its what Nice Girls do!!). Listen To Music As Loudly As Possible. Get A Haircut. Go On Holiday. Retail Therapy. Sex And The City. FLIRT With Everyone! Eat The Rainbow (thanks K!!) Let Your Mum Spoil You. Have Your Hair Done. DO NOT go on Facebook - its the worst thing you can do, especially if she is busy making it clear she has her claws in him now. Its Self Torture and you don't need it. Whats going through your mind is enough!!!!!Most importantly, ENJOY THE FREEDOM YOU HAVE SUDDENLY GAINED!!! It's exciting!! I'm not saying that I am enjoying everyday, and it is hard. But remember what that wise old person said 'Its better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all' xxx

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